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Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Dear Baby

I read that somewhere that writing a letter to your future baby can be healing and helpful for those dealing with the pain of infertility. So I wrote this letter a while back. I'm not sure it helped and boy did it make me cry!

Dear Baby,
Everyday I dream of you, of holding you in my arms and loving you. You aren't even here yet, not even conceived yet... and yet, I still love you so much. Sometimes the pain is so hard to endure knowing I may never get to see your face, hear your giggle, or kiss your boo boos. Mommy and daddy love you so much and we wish you were here with us. I hope that one day I'll get to hold you. If and when that day comes you will know love like no other child has known. You will be treasured and loved beyond words. I'm so ready to meet you, feel you grow inside my tummy. Maybe our day will be soon. I hope so. Mommy and daddy are starting to get impatient and we're ready for you.



  1. I should write one of those, too. I was always so scared of getting pregnant when Phil and I first met (and I had never been on the Pill yet), but now I think I'm just infertile. Stupid hormones. Getting better though!
    I'm so glad you're started a blog. I started mine only a few months ago, and I find it's pretty fun (though mine is mostly food-related).

    Sorry we didn't see each other while you were just here. When are you thinking of coming back down?


  2. I try to come every 6 months. It depends on if my parents come up here for Christmas or not. If they don't come up here, Thayer and I will be coming down for a couple weeks if he can get leave. I was sad I didn't get to see more people while I was home, but I seriously did homework like 4+ hours a day. There were a few days I did homework for like 10-12 hours.


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