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Monday, December 31, 2012


So yesterday around 5pm I went to the restroom and found blood in my undies and when I wiped. This, of course, immediately freaked me out. I called my OB's on-call nurse who told me, based on the bleeding and the clots I passed in addition to the back pain I was having I should be seen within the next 4 hours. Thayer and I went straight to the ER in my hometown (we are out of state visiting family). The got me back in a room and did blood work and had me pee in a cup. Then we waited for an ultrasound tech to come in. They don't have one on staff 24/7 because it's such a small hospital so they had to call her in. At about 8pm we went back to have our ultrasound. Of course I was expecting the worst.

They started with a transabdominal US and took some pictures of my ovaries and uterus, but couldn't get a clear picture of what was going on in my uterus. She then switched to an transvaginal US. After lots of looking and measuring the ultrasound tech zooms in on my uterus and says, "Looks like we have two kiddos in there." She then proceeded to show us Baby B followed by Baby A. She took pictures and measurements of each and checked their heart rates. Baby A had a heart rate of 174 and Baby B had a heart rate of 177. There are 2 yolk sacs, and based on the fact that I ovulated out 2 eggs, our best guess at the moment is that they are fraternal twins.

Both babies are measuring 8w3d as of yesterday. It was pretty hard to get measurements on them because they were pretty wiggly and one wanted to hide some. Based on the day I ovulated instead of my last menstral periods I should be 8w4d as of yesterday (by LMP I would be 9w1d). The on-call OB I saw said things look good, and they couldn't pin point the cause of the bleeding. Since last night, the spotting has stopped. I'm on pelvic/bed rest until I see my regular OB on Wednesday.

Needless to say, we are a little bit shocked. We didn't really expect this at all. 3 1/2 years of trying for one little baby and not being able to manage it, all of a sudden we're having two. Guess I can look at is as I only have to go through morning sickness, pregnancy, labor/delivery, etc. once because we only plan to have 2 children.

We were too shocked, I think, to even ask for a print out of pictures of the little bugs. We should have those on Wednesday though because they were planning on doing and ultrasound that day anyways.

8w4d with TWINS!

Sunday, December 23, 2012

8 weeks

Things have still been going well. Not really any morning sickness today. Not sure how I feel about that. It's one of those double edge sword situations. Does the absense of symptoms mean something is going wrong? Yesterday I was miserable. Due to the Zofran (morning sickness, nausea medicine) I was incredibly constipated (lol, tmi I know). Finally took something to help and it was... painful. I still haven't gained any weight, but I think I've finally stopped losing weight. I've been making sure to drink plenty of fluids and eat good food in addition to my protein shakes.

I'm doing the very best I can. It does depress me some to know that even with me doing my very, very best it might not be enough to make this little bug stay safe and growing in my uterus. I try not to think about miscarrying again, but from time to time it does cross my mind. I keep reminding myself not to count my chickens before my eggs hatch because I know that at any moment this blessing could be taken away from me. It's a hard pill to swallow, especially when so many women I know can get pregnant in the blink of an eye. I really don't know how much heartbreak I can survive at this point, and I just hope that this is finally my time.

We are telling my in-laws tomorrow that we are expecting. My parents already know; they've known since the morning I got my BFP. They live overseas so tomorrow it will technically be Christmas day for them. We're also planning on announcing on Facebook after we have our next doctor's appointment. I have a SUPER cute idea for how to do it.

 Not the best picture. So is the little pooch bloat or the start of the bump? I'm betting on bloat... lol. I do know that because of my surgery I will tend to "pop" sooner than most first time moms because I'm stretched out muscle wise like I've been pregnant before.
Symptoms: Nausea, enlarged, tender breasts (1/2 cup size already), sensitive nipples, tired a lot, feeling very lethargic, constipated.

Friday, December 21, 2012

7 weeks... holy all day sickness

This post is late. The holidays and preparing for them have kept me pretty busy. I had my first doctors appointment on Tuesday. They adjusted my due date to August 4th. They took blood, had me sign papers, and went over basic information. I got a nice little, free book. All my bloodwork came back normal. My next appointment is still January 2nd. I've now lost almost 10 pounds since finding out I was pregnant, though I don't look it because I look super bloated.

This week the morning sickness (or should I say all day sickness) has really kicked in. The doctor gave me a prescription for Zofran. It has been a complete life saver. I already have difficulty eating much because of my surgery and being nauseous and barfing just made it that much worse. Actually... I don't really even barf. I just dry heave really hard because of the way my stomach had been re-routed. It hurts more than anything and sounds really horrible.

I'm not complaining. Just stating facts. I'm thankful every time I feel sick. I'm thankful for waking up all night long to run to the bathroom because I get up at least 3 times a night to pee now because I'm drinking so much water. I wouldn't change it for a second. I know how lucky I am. I also know that I have another 5 weeks before this little baby is completely nestled inside me and safe.

Symptoms: tired, all day sickness, sore nipples/boobs, weightloss, frequent urination.

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

6 weeks

Today marks 6 weeks. I FINALLY was able to make my first appointment. Let me tell you what a pain in the ass that was. First, I had to wait for insurance approval to make the appointment. I got that on Friday AFTER the doctors office was already closed. So, I called first thing Monday morning. After 15 minutes on hold on the appointment line I told the scheduler about my concerns over weightloss due to my gastric bypass surgery. She told me she would put in paperwork for the referral specialist to look over. The referral person would look it over and talk to the doctor to determine if I would an earlier than normal first appointment. The scheduler told me it would probably take 3-5 days for the referral person. I was so FRUSTRATED. I just want to know that everything is okay. I just want something to go right for me for once. Luckily, today (Tuesday) I got a call back. I have an appointment on Dec. 18th to go in and sign forms and have labs done. Then we have our first appointment at 9w1d on January 2nd. These days cannot get here fast enough. I was hoping because of my medical concerns I would get seen earlier than "normal" but he doesn't seem that concerned about it.

6 weeks - Some bloat

Symptoms: nausea after eating and if I go very long with an empty stomach, sore nipples, fatigue, acne, constipation, restless sleep, peeing more frequently.

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Smexy Just In Time

Well it looks like I got my boudoir pictures done just in time because now I'm pregnant and bloated. I'm pretty happy with them! I feel awesome. It's so weird to see my collar bones and shoulder blades. I'm so used to being a fatty with rolls on top of rolls that hid all my bones.

I did some "naughty teacher" shots.

I look naked, but I have a corset on.

This is my favorite... I editted it down.. you can't see my corset and thigh highs :-P

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

5 weeks and counting...

Today is the 5 week mark. I'm feeling pretty good. Peed on another test a couple of days ago with a 3 hour hold. It was darker than the others. I take that as a good sign. Still waiting on getting into the doctor and making my first appointment. It's frustrating, but I guess patience is a virtue. It's just difficult when there is no way of knowing if everything is going right. Heck, really, even if I could get into the doctor there isn't any way of knowing every moment of every day if everything is going alright. I guess I just need to have faith that it is finally my turn. It's hard when I've been fooled into thinking that before. Yes, I have my hopes up and I try not to think about the "bad" things, but I would be completely lying if I said it didn't cross my mind from time to time. I'm ready for Christmas to be here so we can tell the world our exciting news. I'll be about 8 weeks at that time. It's still before the "safe zone" but I don't want to spend the pregnancy hiding. I want to enjoy every minute because I know it can be taken away from me in a heartbeat.

Tomorrow I'm going into get my boudoir pictures. I'm so excited to see them! I know they're going to look great!

5 Weeks... just some bloat.

Symptoms: bloated, nausea on and off, acne breakout, twinges in my belly, tiredness, moodiness, emotional (crying at weird stuff), sore nipples, and swollen breasts.

I've had no cramping for a couple of days and no bleeding.