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Tuesday, August 17, 2010

bark yell bark yell

Ok.. the barking has now gone on for 2 hours... you're out in the yard half that time. Shut your dogs up. Some people's husbands are trying to sleep. Also, its after 9pm and you're kids don't need to be yelling and screaming like wild banshees. I know dogs bark. My dogs don't. They were trained not to... but these dogs bark all the time and at everything. Anytime they are outside they are barking. If the wind blows, they bark. If a car drives by, they bark. Bark Bark Bark... If this continues I think I'm going to make a phone call or go talk to them. It's getting ridiculous, especially if you're outside and you don't do anything about it. lol That is my vent for the evening...

Thursday, August 12, 2010

The Life of a Housewife (against her will)

Cook, clean, laundry, dogs, sex, cook, dogs, clean, dogs, clean, cook, sex, dogs, laundry, *OMG I'm ovulating* sex, sex, sex... An endless, boring, unstimulating cycle. *sigh* I need a job, but I don't want to drive all the way to Minot for a low wage, and it seems that I can't get on anywhere on base because I don't get to claim spouse preference. I could substitute, but I have to pay for my Missouri teaching license and THEN pay for my North Dakota one... and would it really be worth it if we're only here for 2 years? Blah... I need a job, but I'm scared of getting something that will be too much and take too much time away from school. I also want to be able to go home every so often, and I wouldn't have a lot of time off in a lot of positions. I just feel stuck. I hate sitting at home, but then again I don't want to have to lock Kaia up all the time... but then again, eventually I'll have a full time teaching job. *confused* Thayer also said he doesn't really want me to get a job because he'd rather have me at home where he can spend time with me when he has time off. There is also the fact that Thayer is thinking about taking a voluntary deployment, which means I would move back home for the duration of his deployment instead of being stuck up here... especially if it's in the winter. I need something to do... a job from home, a hobby... something. I would LOVE to work from home, but I don't want to be a consultant for some product like Scentsy or MaryKay. Maybe I could learn how to make something and start selling it? Maybe I should start working on my novel again? I just don't know what to do with all this free time I have. I've worked since I was 17 and I just feel so lazy... I wish I could just get knocked already so I could focus on a baby and just relaxing so I could make sure to have a healthy baby... *sigh* what to do, what to do... We don't really need the money... but extra money is always nice.

Monday, August 9, 2010

Someone Has a Case of the Mondays, but It's NOT ME!

So I think today is going to be the start of a wonderful week. *shocker* for once I'm being optimistic instead of pessimistic! Maybe my happy pills are working?! Anyways, Thayer is home sick again today because his medicince was making him fall asleep at work. He did, however, come home and tell me that he wanted me to go to the BX and buy him nicotine patches so that he can quit smoking. After almost 2 years of marriage he is finally going to keep his promise to quit smoking! I'm so excited and happy for him! I know he'll be healthier after he quits.

Also, on the good news front I'm going to have Thayer call today or tomorrow to make his appointment for his analysis so we can move further on the baby making front. After his analysis comes back I can go in and have more tests run on myself. After his results come back they will schedule me for an exam that makes sure that my falopian tubes are open and clear and that my uterus isn't tilted. I'm pretty sure that Thayer is okay, but there is always a chance that working with the nuclear missles could have messed up his sperm count or motility. I guess we'll know soon enough. After all the test are done being run, I will start back on my Metformin and probably, Clomid. I hope to God that the Clomid works for me. When I first went off my birth control last year I was ovulating on my own, but Thayer's swimmers weren't finding the egg. So I'm hoping that it won't take much for me to start ovulating again.

I also have good news on the weightloss front. I've lost about 5 pounds since I got back from Kansas. I don't know if it's water weight or what, but the scale is saying that I've lost 5lbs! I've been watching what I eat, eating more fruits and veggies and less "bad" stuff. I do treat myself once or twice a week though.

Tonight I'm going to dinner with the ladies, Connie, Martha, Brianna, and Cristina. I think we'll have a wonderful time! I'm glad I'm finally making some friends. I've really enjoyed taking Kaia on walks with all the ladies. Kaia really likes Kenobi and loves walking with him! It's really funny how pissy Myst is when we get back from our walk because I didn't take her with us. I know she couldn't handle an hour or longer walk with her knee being the way it is. Usually when I get home with Kaia, I'll put Myst on her leash and take her for a walk around the block so that she feels special too. Myst is my baby, and I love her to death! I'm so glad we got her the surgery. She still limps at times, but she plays more and you can tell she's not in pain like she was before the surgery. I don't know what I would have done without Myst; she's my little girl!

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Small Victories

So Thayer and I have been going around and around since October about him going to the lab and making his "donation" to be tested so we could proceed with fertility treatments. Today I finally got him to agree to do it. lol I had to bribe my husband. I told him he could get a video game (StarCraft II) IF he called next week and scheduled his appointment to go in and get his little soldiers tested. I realized today that I'm pushing 26 and I want to be done with this whole having babies thing done by the time I'm 30-32. I can't believe I had to bribe him, but I guess whatever works. Once he goes in and gets his little swimmers tested I can go and get the rest of my tests run and then start on Clomid and HOPEFULLY get pregnant in the next year. Here's to hoping.

Kaia and I have started going on walks with Martha and her dog, Kenobi. I really enjoy going and I know that taking an hour or more long walk everyday or every other day has to be good for me. I've been eating a lot healthier (for the most part) so hopefully the walks will help me drop a few pounds. I bought a scale yesterday so that I can track the progress that I'm hoping to see. Once I get used to the long walks I think I'll start adding situps or something else to the workout when I get home.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010


Lazy day today. Thayer has been working late the last few days. It's weird to be home alone all evening again. He should only be working late for the rest of the week. The only annoying thing is, when he does get home he goes directly to his computer to play his game and completely ignores me the rest of the evening because he "wants to relax." lol I wasn't aware that someone couldn't relax while sitting on the couch cuddling with his wife.

Myst is doing well as is Kaia.

There's not a whole lot going on. I start Fall classes on the 23rd. I have one final project to finish for the summer semester. It shouldn't take me long, I'm just putting it off because I don't really want to do it. Guess I could finish it tonight while Thayer is gone.

That's it for now :)