So yesterday was my 26th birthday. Yeah, I know. I'm getting old! My RE says I'm still young though so :-P
During this, my twenty-sixth year of life, I will try to look to the future and what is in front of me instead of dwelling on the past and "what might have been." You can't live you're life that way. It's just too sad and depressing. So... looking to the future... Friday I can test to see if I'm pregnant. If the home test says no I'm still going in to the clinic to have them do a blood test so I can start my Provera and another month of treatment if I'm not. If I am then YAY!! I'm trying not to be too hopeful because I know if I'm not I'm going to be plenty heartbroken. If I'm not, I'll probably staying in and having a pity party for one all weekend. I guess we will just have to see. I know a lot of my friends and family want me to post it up on Facebook as soon as I know. I kind of have mixed feelings about doing that. I mean, I do have an increased risk of miscarriage and won't be in the clear until I'm 12 weeks along. So... I'm torn with what I should do. I want everyone to know and be happy for me, but what if I lose the baby? lol so much for looking at the future... it's kind of depressing too.
So more about my birthday :) I went out to dinner with some friends then we went back to my house and just hung out. It was a good time. A lot of people didn't come that said they would, but I guess that was to be expected. People get sick, etc. Martha made me an honorary beaner by giving me a cake in the face :)