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Saturday, April 2, 2011

Brown Chicken Brown Cow

.... I am so ready to be intimate with my husband again. We haven't had smexy fun time since we conceived our angel baby. That was a long time ago. It is frustrating, because once again, I feel like I'm letting him down. I feel like I can't do anything right. Believe me, he's very supportive and I know he loves me. I do really really miss feeling close to him in an intimate way. He has take good care of me. He holds me when I cry, which is almost daily. I'm just so overwhelmed with life. Between school, work, possibly moving (being in limbo), the miscarriage, possible surgery... just everything is jumbled and stressful. I feel bipolar. Last night I was tipsy after dinner and we were driving home and I was so happy and joking one minute... and the next I was thinking about how if I were still pregnant I wouldn't be able to drink and I burst into tears. Life has been such a rollarcoaster and I'm ready to get off the ride.


  1. HUGS HUGS HUGS!!! At dinner the couple across from us had a baby & she was drinking. I thought 'how unfair, she gets both and I have neither'. You'll get back to your smexy time. I don't know if that was a typo or not but I like it. I know how you feel & you'll get there. :)

  2. i know how you feel about wanted to have sex lol i have been there twice and it freaking sucks. for me the first time after both miscarriages hurt like hell, i cried after not only because of the pain but it was reminder of what we lost and why we had to wait to get it on. hubby thought i was crazy but the first time was so full of emotions! good luck on naughty time! my hubby has been working tons but i am getting laid tomorrow lol


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