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Thursday, July 21, 2011

Mary the Confessor

Edward the Confessor by The Divine Comedy

I'm so sorry
Please forgive me

For knowing that I'm wrong but insisting I'm right
For wanting everything to be either black or white
For wallowing in self-pity, confessing all my sins
For studying my thoughts till my head caves in
For all the things I've said but regret so much now
For all the things I should have said but I couldn't somehow
For all the times I've meant them
And I've known them for so long
But I still get endings wrong

I'm so sorry
Please forgive me
For trying to be all things to all men
For shelving my objectives time and time again
For looking for perfection in everything I do
When really I need only look as far as you

For demanding to be loved by someone new each year
Then dispatching quietly over a pint of beer
Well yeah, I did it without malice
And I did it without shame
But I did it just the same

I'm so sorry
Please forgive me

For coming home from work in the middle of the night
For waking you up with the bathroom light
For wanting to touch you with these cold cold hands
For wanting to have you just because I can
For always running from an argument
When I ought to stand and fight
For suppressing my emotions
'cause I'm too goddamn polite
and then for thinking that by simply saying sorry
I could suddenly make everything alright
I'm so sorry please forgive me...
I'm so sorry please forgive me...

I'm sorry for all the things I've done wrong in my life. Maybe I don't regret somethings as much as I should. Maybe things could have turned out different. I'm sorry. Some parts of this song really hit me (things I've placed in bold/italics)... because they describe me as well. We all have our issues... our troubles... etc. I'm sorry to those I've hurt and I'm sorry I've let others hurt me so much. The list could go on and on, but that is not the point of this post. I'm sorry for sometimes not being sorry at all. Maybe one day things will turn out right, maybe one day things will be perfect.... (lol yeah right). Here's to hoping, but until then I'm sorry.

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