So I think I've changed my mind about my surgery. I still want to have weight loss surgery because it will greatly help in my ability to become pregnant and maintain the pregnancy. The heavier you are the more likely you are to have severe complications, miscarriage, and this is on top of my ability to even get pregnant. I now believe, after having my psych eval yesterday, that I would like to have a regular bypass surgery instead of just the Lapband. It would be the difference between losing 50lbs and not losing that weight. The more weight I lose, the better, in my mind. Thayer's okay with it. He was just worried about how I would feed the baby after the surgery because he knows I would be able to eat very very little. There is lots of research about women who have had it and then become pregnant. There are special precautions that have to be made, yes, but it's not horrible. So... I think I've made my decision and I will be the skinniest I've been since elementary school. That makes me hella excited. Hopefully one year after surgery I should be down to only 140lbs! After surgery, it is recommended that I wait at least 18 months before TTC again... and that sucks :( That sucks... A LOT... but I guess in the end it will be worth it to have healthy normal pregnancies and healthy normal babies.
For those of you that are interested, I haven't pee'd on anything yet. I'm waiting a few more days before I test just in case I ovulated late. Also, before surgery Thayer and I plan to do one more round of Clomid and see what happens.