(posting from phone... it doesnt always like to capitalize, etc.)
I have decided that I'm not going to be that girl anymore. You know the type.... the one that always seems to go back for more when she gets knocked down... the one that never seems to learn from the past (at least relationship wise). I am not going to be the girl that gets walked on anymore. I am not going to allow my heart to dictate as much of my life. No longer will I wear my heart on my sleeve. I will not allow myself to be so vulnerable and so naive as to think people might actually have changed. I will be more guarded... less forthcoming with my feelings. I will be different... colder...harsher. I will protect myself more. I will not trust so easy. Thank you for showing me my flaws. I may have gotten hurt (again), but at least I can come out standing tall and fighting back. End of story.
I think I've finally learned my lesson. It only took me how many years?