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Sunday, July 17, 2011

Confuzzled

Lately there have been some things going on in my life that have really confuzzled me. I'm not sure what to do... I'm not sure what my heart or head are telling me because they're just as confused as the rest of me. I don't know what I want, I don't know what or who I need. All I know is how I feel, and that is the hard part. I know this is going to be a very vague post because what's going on I don't really want or need anyone knowing about.

I miss certain people being in my life. I miss them more than I should miss them. I can't help but think about how things might be different. I can't stop thinking about what ifs and the like. I know the past can't be changed but what about the here and now and the future? How can I change things? How can I make them better? I don't know if right now I can. Maybe I just have to endure for now and see how things work out. I don't want to make more mistakes. I'm not sure what road to take, but at some point I'm going to have to decide, and that scares me. Where is life going to take me in the next few months and years? I don't know... but I guess in the end everything will work out how it is supposed to.






2 comments:

  1. if you ever need to talk you have my number :) i think everyone thinks of the what if's and sometimes if feels like all i think about lol you just need to do what is right for you and it will all work out in the end because you will make it work out!

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  2. We all have those times & they're hard. Would things have been different? You'll never know. Changing the future isn't always easy. You just have to follow your heart but listen to your head too. Sometimes just following your heart leads to more heartache & you wish you would've listen to your conscience but then again, you feel like it's what you need to do. It's hard to know what's right but all you can do is live life. I hope the answers come to you soon. HUGS!!!
    (I changed my blog address working-on-our-miracle.blogspot.com)

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