So... as many of you who read what I post here regularly know... I found out last week that I was expecting. Tuesday morning I woke up at 5am to go to the bathroom only to find spots of dark brown blood. Scared, I called the clinic hotline and talked to one of there "advice" people who told me to go to the ER. I got dressed and went immediately in. They took 7 tubes of blood and did and U/S. I was discharged 3ish hours later with information about "threatened miscarriage" and put on bed rest. Things seemed to be going okay. The bleeding had pretty much stopped. I didn't have any cramping and it was all brown... until this morning when I started cramping like crazy and bleeding pretty bad. This morning Thayer and I said goodbye to our baby. My hopes and dreams were literally flushed down the toilet. I don't know if I've passed our little bean yet. I'm scared to know. I feel so bad knowing that that is where my baby is. I loved my baby so much. An unbelieveable love... unimaginable.... That is the baby I had been hoping and praying for, for 2 years only to be swept away. Did I do something wrong? Was I a bad mom? I know Thayer has reassured me time and time again that there is nothing I could have done. I took my vitamins, I ate extra healthy, I drank lots of water... I just feel so guilty... so sad. I want to talk about it... but when I do I start crying. I will write more when I can actually see the monitor though my tears.