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Sunday, March 20, 2011

Just Trying to Get By

An Angel in the Book of Life wrote down our baby's birth, and whispered as she closed the book, "Too beautiful for Earth."

"The sudden disappointment of a hope leaves a scar which the ultimate fulfillment of that hope never entirely removes."

Just Those First Few Weeks
By Susan Erling

For those few weeks -
I had you to myself
And that seems too short a time
To be changed so profoundly

In those few weeks -
I came to know you...
and to love you.
You came to trust me with your life.
Oh, what a life I had planned for you!

Just those few weeks -
When I lost you I lost a lifetime of hopes,
plans, dreams, and aspirations...
A slice of my future simply vanished overnight.

Just those few weeks -
It wasn't enough time to convince others
how important and special you were.
How odd, and truly unique person has recently died
And no-on is mourning the passing.

Just a few more weeks -
And no 'normal' person would cry all night
over a tiny unfinished baby,
or get depressed and withdraw day after endless day.
No-one would, so why am I?

You were just those first few weeks my little one
You darted in and out of my life too quickly.
But ut seems that's all the time you needed
to make my life so much richer
and give me a small glimpse of eternity.

Author Unknown

These are my footprints,
so perfect and so small.
These tiny footprints
never touched the ground at all.
Not one tiny footprint,
for now I have wings.
These tiny footprints were meant
for other things.
You will hear my tiny footprints,
inthe patter of the rain.
Gentle drops like angel's tears
of joy and not from pain.
You will see my tiny footprints,
in each butterflies' lazy dance.
I'll let you know I'm with you,
if you just give me a chance.
You will see my tiny footprints,
in the rustle of the leaves.
I will whisper names into the wind,
and call each one that grieves.
Most of all, these tiny footprints,
are found on Mommy and Daddy's hearts.
'Cause even though I'm gone now,
We'll never truly part.


  1. dis is so sad it brouht me to tear's...i pray dat God blesses the both of u'ze with a baby!!im so surprised at how strong u guy's r...u guy's have my support..and alway's will..God will bless with a future Mary....i noe he will...OD BLESS THE BOTH OF U'ZE!!

  2. Wow! This is touching. Thank you for showing how strong you can be through tough things like this.


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